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I want to change everything about me; the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i dress up, the way i treat every single one around me–NOW

When i say now, means today.
Because i cant wait any longer,
Because as soon as i wait, I lose the desire of transforming myself to a new person.
You know, i overthink;

Why do i do this? What is it for? It is not even necessary

Thats why I want to do it soon as in today.
Is there another way of transforming myself slowly without losing the desire of doing it?

I need help.
I need motivation.

Because day by day i get demotivated by the way i live my everyday life.

O dear Allah guide me to be a better muslimah O Allah.